drowned myself in a small cupful of korean traditional wine dad allowed me. yet still so sober(actually im feeling a ping of headache coming soon). and right here, ive some apologies to make.

so many things happened today. and i bet i talked on the phone for more than 4 hours with so many people. talked at this thomson furniture shop and then from home all the way to ikea and walked for few hours and talked for that long. i admit i was not as emotional as the others but it hurt me as much as you all had hurt.

to kaili, im sorry. two words so simple yet it meant a lot. im really really sorry for disliking you. i shouldnt have. you are my best sitting partner/friends, and i shared so many of my secrets to you and you were always there to listen to my whining. i thought bout it and i realised i shouldnt have been like this. perhaps we should take this weekend to think about this and return to school on monday as the best of friends, ok? sorry.
to fiona, im sorry. since primary six and i realised, maybe i hadnt really understanded you that much. i dont deny i was over sensitive about you and everything but i seriously dont want all this thing to end. we had spent almost the whole of this year laughing and i dont want it to end crying. sorry.
to shuhuei, im sorry. i shouldnt have shouted on the phone. i really dont want our friendship to farewell now. and shuhuei, we are best friends still ok? i really dont mean all that loud voices at you and huishan. i think i had gone overboard then. and i dont like the sound of you crying into the phone. no more crying ok? sorry.
to huishan, im sorry. i regret scolding you and shu on the phone at ikea. i didnt know why i had did that. and im glad you and shu are friends again. and thanks for letting me call you over and over again. best friends forever. sorry
to chishun, im sorry. i shouldnt have called you, shouting at you over the phone and slamming it down. i was in a really terrible mood then. im sorry.
to sherbelle, im sorry. sorry for constantly telling you to shut up.
to the rest that was affected by my crying at ikea(esp mum and dad), im sorry. i didnt act maturely like i should have. im sorry for whining at you all. sorry.

this is getting complicated. dad told me, "would you rather quarrel than settle the whole thing? you see, even papa and mama quarrel, you and sherbelle or shawn quarrel too. but imagine, you and your friends quarreled and the next minute, they're gone. is that what you want? or to salvage the friendship?" then i broke down. i cried in ikea in front of the crowd. and thank you ice cream for cooling me down. and fiona, i think we need a talk sometime. but i really mean that talk to forget all our grudges. to all my friends, IM SORRY.
i really am.








i hope this helps. to everyone else in this picture, we were all hurt in a way of another. and its not fair to anyone of us to say goodbye so early. we have not enjoyed much fun yet.