today is a TERRIBLE day. got to hear the shocking-est news that made me sooooo sooo upset. everything felt like i just fell from grace. to those that got so interested in my ju, im really sorry im going to disappoint you all.

the bad news is that my ju is cancelled from qihang. i was like wtf all over my head. FINE LA. so its all over. it was like only last friday that we all knew we were in this ju and not even we could begin with our paiju and stuff, within one week, everything dissapeared. and the wrost thing was, i had so much hope about getting into this ju and getting the role i was given. and when finally my wish came true, everything just said goodbye without even letting me enjoy the joy i had. so i was there crying and crying and crying looking like a big fat idiot. everyone was saying thta there is still SYF if we get selecte to do it. but SYF is different from qihang! qihang is like soooo important to me and SYF is almost nothing to me compared to qihang. and at that very point of time i lost all of my confidence. it was no ones fault but i just felt very disappointed in myself.

but later xiaowei said that there was another ju that wanted me. i accepted but to me, me ju is so much better than any others. no offence but i really only want to work with those that was in my ju. sigh.


and we cant turn back time now, cant we? how i wished that time never came.