but the ride up there was not fun at all. you brought me on a ferris wheel ride that stopped at the top. the music went off and the lights shut down. you disappeared into the darkness and left me trembling in fear of the dark and cold. im locked in and i cant find my way out. im afraid to jump down from the ride but theres no other way of escaping the agony.

yeah. thats the feeling you are giving me. it hurts and im afraid but what else can i do? im just living in the misery i gave myself for missing you tooooo much. youve been in my mind the whole march holiday; this sucks.


will be back in school on monday. then the real intensive SYF preparation starts. im starting to ask myself if i can really do it. i realised my previous paijus had been really distracted - all because i was only thinking of you. its wrong but i allowed the distraction. i just hope that i can start to control my mind when school starts cause its not nice to be distracted in class and in paiju. JIAYOU sheila :D


BUT I JUST CANT NOT THINK OF YOU LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.