erm hello. camp is on friday and im not in the im-ready-for-camp mode yet. gosh i think i need a really looooooooong time to tune it out in my brain that the term is FINALLY ending. ive been having like tests everyday and maths homework. and i realised i haven even started on the one due-d on monday. its like wednesday, and im still not deciding to do it. and ive been sacrificing my beauty sleep and baths just to study. ohmygod like my skin is really turning in a bad state. haha i totally sounded like a freaking bimbo right? speaking of which, i havent forgot that im bimb still :D


today was another extremely saaaaad day. ive been wanting to make things clear but everything just doent comes out neatly. i tried to swallow my misery back into my stomach which hopefully might take away some fats of mine and i seriously lost my appetite. i couldnt even finish that 50cents pasta. but still, i told my problem to huishan and this FREAKING MORON. whatever i shall be nice since she walked me all the way home today. but whatever. when i came home, i started tearing. not crying because im in no position to. i really dont think that there is any reason why i should cry or whatever, but i just couldnt help it. and all those weird and bad things i heard, i will not really think much about it.




i think ive gone too deep. but i dont think i'll be able to stop that. so im just going to let it hurt me.