i had a really hard time today.


the worst especially at the drama studio. throughout the whole cca games we had in the dark, i was squirming and fidgeting. im telling everyone now that i have this really bad feeling about this drama studio. im not going to say that its like whatever and whatever or whatever but i just dont feel comfortable in it in the dark. so you can say its a kind of warning.
and for the whole morning, ive been in mouring silence. i lost interest in talking to everyone or anyone. your appearance dint really helped much either. but those glances at you did make my day. could you smile at me for one last time before i turn away?

"aren't you tired at all? you've been runnng around in my head." im quoting LJ but this really goes to you, :D. but i guess you're probably not my worst but someone i wouldnt mind disturbing me from even my deepest thoughts. i dont remember when all this i-think-i-like-you thing began but now, you really hold a big fat place in my heart and/mind. i think ive gone too deep into this. but i really just cant stop looking at you. i need help from the 3 wonderful-est people that heard my sorrows today at the flats opposite school and whom walked me to the busstop. GOSH I THINK I REALLY LIKE :D OK. damn the fucking shit out of me. thanks a lot, im not helping myself at all.




I NEED TO SCREAM THE WORD 'HELL' AND HOPEFULLY HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS FOR ONCE BEFORE THROWING MYSELF OUT INTO THE SEA. im in really deep shit.