went to faith's house with lijie yesterday and it was so fun. we had tequila while lijie, who didnt wanted any, drank coke. and me and faith got drunk on tequila while lijie, on coke. we took photos of us on faith's sofa, acting dead drunk. so me and faith had our cups in our hands and lijie, the big fat coke bottle. it was damn hilarious.

everyone says you'll forget your sorrows when you drink. but no, i was thinking of you every moment my eyes were opened and closed. and when i was almost dead drinking the weird thing that tastes gross with a great feeling.

but im telling you, tequila sucks especially you drink it in gulps. thats what me and faith did. and i was all nausea that night, i slept at 10. i was so sick i could just dieeee. i needed to puke but its so unglam if my mum sees my puking shes going to start getting worried and stuff and she'll probably know i drank. which is a bad thing. but the feeling was uber great. it was burning my everything inside my body. the sensation was SHIOK AHH.

and school today was nearly terrible. i got my PPR back this morning and it was a total shit. and i couldnt concentrate in my lessons after that cause i was stuck with :D in my head. im not saying that its a bad thing or something but i was really distracted the whole day. plus i got a mini hangover with the headache and stomachaches.

and KRISHHES ahhh, please stop your attempts to be anti-social (but the way you told me that was so hilarious, thankyou). I NEED YOU RIGHT NOW. you are like my fast reacting cold remedy. you are loveeeee. ok and you totally dont have to feel honoured when you see this :) but you are always tooo busy. hahaaa ok i know. you are going to say that when you are free, im busy right? well, sorry laaaa. but i know you love me too :)

time is running and we might not have much time left for us. its either this or that. and this sucks cause i want that. im not speaking rubbish. just think about it and you'll understand what im trying to say. its nothing difficult.

i have many to say about everything. if anything happened, please remember what i had said ok. especially those that i said to lijie, faith and huishan. please, you really have to tell everyone i love them all and its probably hard to let go because you are all so dear to me. i feel my life coming to the peak. and im saying this cause i almost got hit by a speeding car on wednesday. and life is something weird; it comes and go without us even knowing it. and maybe goodbye is something we all want to hear before someone dear really has to go. so if anything bad might really happen (which i dont want to, cause i never want to leave without telling her how much i loved her) just remember the cheerful side of me and not those times when i would just sit and cry in front of all of you. those sad times are not wanted by me anyway but they just come as and when they want to. so remember my smiles and not my tears. SHEILASEAH IS ALWAYS SOMEONE WHO NEVER FAILS TO CHEER YOU UP, RIGHT?

i love you, heartbreaking-ly. it hurts but i cant forget the feeling you gave me when i see your smiles. i love you, i really do. we are so far away now and i cant get back to you anymore. we are going in different directions. but you are reaching the light and i heading towards the cliff. it might be goodbye forever if we do nothing about this. ok maybe its all a me-thing. but i hope you will know that i love you.