its thursday today. no school till monday-something that keeps me awake tonight :D but tomorrow is kind of wasted. there is paiju tomorrow. i cant understand myself. i've been trying hard not to "be a bad girl" but i cant help it sometimes. the feeling doesnt feel right at all some times. something must be damn wrong with me. lets just hope that tomorrow will be better.

im not fine. maybe yes, im fine. and i just felt like telling valentia that i love her so much. hahhh cause shes been a really great friend, staying with me after school on wednesday to study, helping me with all those troubling stuffs and we promised each other that we are going to stay friends like how the 4 people in after hours are. valentia, thanks for being so wonderful. you really are a great friend. look out for my presents when i come back from my trips :) i know you are totally jealous that i'll be holiday-ing and you are not. but you are still my friend. haha

and i hope im not some object that you all can order around. this is another reason why i am pissed, but obviously no one noticed. its ok. ive got a special talent in keeping things to myself for a very long time but dont worry, i'll do well. sometimes you really have to know when i need a break for myself, this is the least you can do for me now. please dont try to hold me too tightly, the more i'll want to break free and run away from you.