that day you brought me to the pond and you threw in a pebble. you said it's time to move on. you turned around and pulled me along. when all you did was to cry, i could only kept quiet and watch you do whatever you wanted.

its not your fault, and i don't blame you. so stop blaming yourself :)

i had a very unexpected dream last night. i can still remember every part of it and whatever she said. but i don't think i would ever want it all to happen, so yeahhhh. but in my dream she told me about some stuff, and i went to check it just now, and whatever she said was true. surprise surprise, but if this is some hint that the dream will come true, then i rather pretend i never had such a dream. okay, i'm ready to tell huishan about it, i bet she'll just laugh at it. but anyway, for her to say such things in my dream, its very obvious that she was having a damn hard time, but at least it was a very fun dream :D come to think of it, it's quite like a sweet dream, except it would be better if i dreamt of someone else.

i'm too lazy to write about my trip so too bad. just know that i had a very good time there and yeah. and yes, i'm back in singapore already :)

natalieong was mean last night :( I MISS SOCK. vchew, i'm missing you already. huishan, our chinese presentation HOW?

well, you'll never know how much you're missing out and everything does matter. no matter what you've done, or what you're going to do, it's really too late, cause i'm throwing away the pebble too. I was losing myself to somebody else, but now I see. I don't wanna pretend so this is the end of you and me.

oh i had japfood with huishan yesterday while waiting for vchew. that's our secret hideout number two, so i'm not revealing where we had our dinner. and secret hideout number one is the bestest. that's where i can scream out loud, although i'll still be disturbing residents, but i don't really care. screaming is my painkiller, it does work out for a few hours but the pain still comes back after that. and you are my drug, you're killing me. If one look at you already kills me, then what about your voice? You take it all away, I'm losing control.

I'm just too stupid.

mum saw my thighs and what i did.